can i or can't i?

after talking v him from a long fon call....v decided to stop seeing each other for the next two month...actually i edi planning to do so but just i wanted him to say it ratter than me....may be if is me i will felt bad after saying that because i can resist to stop seeing him or even contact him....if is him who say it out i will be a bit ok with it because this is wat he choose to...haha....but actually is because i wanted to now the answer, always fan-ing him....hope to get the answer as quick as possible and also the answer that i wanted...

in the end i got what i deserve....may be is a good thing...may is not? i dun really know...i noe it will be a bit hard for me to do so....but i can nt choose anything more than this...may be its better because i will fan him and also let him have some time to really think about it....hopefully he will not change his mind within the two month...hopefully i get wat i deserve...hopefully it turn out well....

but my feelings now is like so regretful of agree-ing....my mind turn out many may be question, many if question.....the time haven come i edi simply think stuff de....i can nt denied that is me...

at this time i can nt be very happy or sad...there is nothing to be happy of...nothing to be proud of...just can take it normally...

with in the two month...will it have many things happen that time?....will things change? will i break my promise for dialing the fon? can i stand with-in the two month? nah....there will have no answer for these question because i dun one to answer any of it....may be in the first place i should let him go...if he comes back means he still love me....if not than there is nothing more to be stubborn of.....

u dun tell me wat our relationship will be in the next month but i edi noe what v will be....not couples not even friend not even enemy....just a normal person...

i will until the times come and i hope u hold ur promise.....