weird dreams....sleepless nites....

these nites i have weird dreams....it is not any sweet dreams nor any nightmares just i can say some good dreams that may b will happen in life or may b will not.....sometimes it is good to have dreams like tat cos it is another way of giving me chances and hopes to turn things rite also another way to tell myself that i still have choices in life....although i said these things is like very useful but i also hope i have that kind of chances but i think it is not the time and also i still felt that i haven get ready to face although sooner or later i still have to face it.....am i always holding bakc or wat?

sometimes is really easy to say letting go something that is tgt v u like for some years de...but act it is not....is like u edi used to it de....when thinking of getting a new life v someone u felt very strange like everything is not the same de...although u noe that new person will love u more and never ever make u cry no matter wat...it is act a good thing but u decided to let it go cos u edi choose some way that is more harder for u in the future or even now......sometimes u still will think that r u choosing the right way to happiness.....but v can not c into the futire wat will happen...so just let it b....if is meant to be that way...how i'll change it will always b the same......that is wat i dream of these day bout the people who love me but didn't get the chance to b v me always will b in my dreams loving me no matter wat.....hard to believe it.....

another one of those dayz.....

late at nite not sleeping...still got wat to do...blogging lor....got work and lest time but the still dun want to do.....u say is this call fan zin....haizzz....later sure rush like hell....but then i tell myself not to think the negative way cos when u edi started to think like tat...sure will effect own thinking....try my best no matter wat happen....>.<....

for new house in the future still the same thing hope every things goes smoothly and can find the rite place rite people to stay v.....i really need to get out of here!!!!!