kinda sad to myself.....

i'm edi stop doin my work ed....i'm edi dun have that kind of feeling to continue.... i felt like i can do much more better but i ratter stop de....wat i happening to me...i'm like running away from something but i dun eve noe wat it is...like mr louis always say thing that r a bit hurt sometimes but he is saying the truth.....am i no ready or i just fooling around....i edi fall down once do i even want to fall down again...of cos not la....but then now i just can not concentrate de cos i'm thinking of my family now....long time didn't go bck de and they miss me very much and my dad goin to have a small operation but then i'm still worry bout him...mind keep on thinking of bad result will come out....is scary...i should really care bout myself more than others...care bout people so much, done so mush thing people dun noe and will not noe and nothing becomes better.....is just a waste of time to put too much effort in it...is kind of tire.....just wish to take a break and do wat ever i want to.....happy holidays to me and my frens out there.....

one of my feelings.......

today is a very tired day....finish rushing roger work but not really complete and after dinner v my best pal came bck and just pengsan there until 12 something am only wake...kekeke....a little of me i worrying bout the marks c i can pass or not cos i dun one to retake it.....and also worrying bout other sub....but worry does not bring me anything so better just let go of it cos wat is done is edi done just need to face it no matter wat.....

yesterday i felt a bit annoyed cos this classmate of mine came and is like giving pressure to me but i noe is me only thinks that way...she is really good in everything i can say but because of sometimes she dun really noe how to understand people that makes people misunderstand her.... but i heard from a fren that she starting to change then i felt i also need to forgive her and may be treat her better cos bein her i noe is not easy....but may b i need time cos still not very guan v her...kekeke....

just now i saw my fren posted pic of her daughter...damn cute...i was really bein touch by those feeling of having a baby and being a mom in my age....cos i noe she is now can consider the happiest women in her life cos she have someone who love her so much and having such beautiful child....later i saw he pic v her husband b4 marry and some wedding pic....i can c happiness in her eyes...her smile....after all those pic....i felt i'm jealous of her....cos i always wanted to be in such happiness but may be not in this age....although i really wanted to get marry in my early age b4 30 but may b thing will change.....this is really god who arrange all these things....if is yours it will be yours for the rest of the time....if not force also no used....
isn't she pretty ^v^

isn't their baby cute and pretty.....


i here wish she and her baby healthy healthy la and also hope she and her baby happy happy....^.^