oww man!!!!

friends ? lovers? this is really OWWW MAN!!!!

just read one of my besties blog...really felt OWWW MAN!!!! i didn't get to join to party due to money issue...damn poor that time...after watching the post she had post and some pic also really felt that they had fun that time....they look so damn gorgeous until i also beh tahan...hahaha...but i can nt stop my heart from saying I'M JEALOUS de...haha.....other than that deep inside i still care bout them and miss them too...may be i dun noe how to arrange my time for them, make them felt i abandon them or in other way, i being left out....sad right? T_T

for the lovers part, i just got an answer from him...FINALLY...but dun noe why i felt like not enough...haha...i'm always wanting more from him...at least what i have gave out finally have a good return...i think so...hahaha...hope this will last till the end...^^

ATTENTION BUDDIES OUT THERE(U NOE WHO U R): SORRY FOR LEFT OUT U GUYS FOR SO LONG DUE TO MY PERSONAL ISSUE,I THINK U GUYS SURE NOE, I HOPE I CAN REPLACE TO U GUYS...WITHOUT U GUYS, I CAN NT STAND TILL NOW...I CAN NT EVEN BEEN SITTING HERE TYING MY BLOG. U GUYS R IMPORTANT TO ME AND I CAN NT EVEN BARE TO LOSE U GUYS...THANK YOU GUYS FOR EVERYTHING...I NOE I'M NOT REALLY THAT GOOD FRIEND OF URS, NT BEING THERE WHEN U GUYS NEEDED, NT HAVING FUN WHEN U GUYS WANTED...SORRY FOR BEING SUCH A BADASS....

fire works....

the song titled FIRE WORKS by KATY PERRY. i bet everyone knows this songs, but for the first time today i saw this video mtv, at first this song gave the msg of some love stories something like that , but after watching the mtv, it is actually about everyones heart and what they dream of.

Everyones heart have their own dream and thats makes everyone different from each other, original, one in the kind...its telling us do v have the guts to take that step and make it come true...

after hearing the song, watching the mtv, makes me think that where is my fire works? now everybody have their own ways, started to go in to what they wanted to go, their target in something. But me, i dun really have my target, lost, dun noe where i should go...hopefully one day i will find something that my heart will be like a fire works always bursting out different colours, giving people surprise every time....that is what i wish for...hopefully i noe where am i goin for...^^

SENTENCE ON THE DAY:

WE CAN HAVE MANY DREAMS, MANY AIMS BUT WHICH IS THE ONE THAT ACTUALLY BE THE ONE THAT BURST OUT COLOURS, LIKE A FIRE WORKS? AGREE?

I'm WICKED....HEHEHEEEEE....

Today is like sitting in a roller coaster...moving up and down....heart beat also from fast to slow....

i didn't get to finish my stuff so to9 still need to rush up...>_<...SAD...tomorrow sure let the lecture scold de....hmmmm...i'm sure will be stung by "hidden words" form him again....hate it!!!

but today i also felt happy cos i have him v me...teman me all the time...although he always want to scold me for every time last minit...but v him by my side...although he bising a lot but i still felt save and no worries when he is beside me....i didn't expect to get anything from him...but today i got chocolates from him....i was happy....he like noe what is the best time to present me...

because this moment i really need his support and care...

this is the one he gave me...strawberries chocolates..it smells nice and of cos taste nice...not too sweet not too bitter...just ok.......

i was really weird that y he choose such wording for the tin box...am i really that wicked?....how come i myself also dun noe....hahaha....from today i saw him as a quite happy person where he talks a lot, sharing a lot of stuff to me that makes me feel so secured being with him...hearing the thing that he said i can spend the hold day doing nothing just for him....

todays sentence of the day: Can LOVE be as easy as it looks like?

agree?