happy "new" year.....

now is the year of 2010....a brand new year....it is kind of strange and kind of different cos from last year no so much invitation on goin vacation but in this year is like damn lot.....but cos of my finance problem i can not go all so i just have to choose....i let some of my fren down and may b they r disappointed in me but i also felt sorry and sad that i break my promise again.....i'm really sorry...this few starting week of the new year felt emotional....when i felt sad wish to cry out loud but i can't.....is just like i wanted to shout but i dun have the voice to shout out loud....is like something holding me bck to do so.....may be is because somethings happen in the previous year that make me cry lest and i almost forgot when is the last time that cry out so badly....kinda miss those feeling cos if u just cry out loud it felt good and relieve.....

this year gave a feeling of the year come all those thing coming bck.....some can consider good and some are bad.....somethings change in the last year but this year is like the old self came bck again.....i felt myself is stating to change cos i felt when i'm angry with him and i'm really nt talking v him....and every time when i have hope in him it just turn me down every time...many people ask me to appreciate for wat i have and the person who care of me.....but does he really care.....no one can really tell.....i just felt disappointed v me and starting to felt for myself and care much bout myself.....my feeling....always wanted someone to care more bout me and always b by my side when i needed but i think that some people are may b selfish and i think may b i should be the other person who care more bout myself.....

kinda funny for me to write something so down and sad for the starting year and although i'm still hoping for something special to remember for the coming days and months....but i will not hoping that much cos somethings will always be the same......"happy new year" li ching.....