stress a bit, scare a bit....still need to face it....

these few days i also didn't slept early cos need to rush assignment....still have a bout a week time to do the second project....scary....but still need to face it and try my best to finish it....

last few days i was like goin here n there....it is also the first time i slept v two gals side by side in the same bed...kekeke...i felt happy tat i have my own gang tat i will felt comfortable when i'm v them...like to talk wat also can....felt very safe when i'm v them.... kekeke....long time didn't felt tis way de.....

today i had a fight again v him....felt very angry but this time i dun felt sad dun noe y.....normally when i had fights v him i sure will cry but tat time i dun felt tat way....is like not sad not angry like no feeling de.....but my mind came out "break up" this two word....i really wanted to say it out when suddenly dun have tat feeling of saying those word...is not tat i'm scare but is like really no feeling de....is it something good or something bad....i kind of think i'm selfish....i wanted him more than any1 but sometimes i dun want him....is like part time in a relationship part time bein single tat kind if feel....if u ask me do i still love him...i will say yes...but dun noe this answer will it last forever...i really wanted to noe....

i really need a job a...damn poor man...no money to shop.....wet....sien!!!!

time past really fast

today is the second day of the month of July....its really fast tat it had already past half year de....
in this half year time many things had happen happy,sad,angry...any of these also had happened
...some things also change with in this half year time....i also dun noe is a good things or not....may b it is good or may b it is not....hmmmm....

i wish to find a part time job...cos i'm very poor....many things tat i wanted to buy but no money....so sien de lor....haizzz.....i also dun dare to ask for more pocket money also...so wat to do...just need to tahan only lor....kekekeke.....little brother goin to study and i hope he will study hard dun give up....

as for my "sa lao", he really change a lot...he also have read my blog too...kekeke...can not belive he also have read....it is also good tat he read cos sometimes i also will not express wat i'm thinking and my feeling too him also ....he did something special for me quite long de....now i only notice.....am i bad or wat...kekekeke....

scary time for me is i haven finish my first project and yet haven start my second one...hope i can finish soon...gambate to chun,sa,ben,so also...kekeke