sad.....T.T

today i felt sad....sad for a fren and for myself....i had mention b4 this fren in my blog b4....she is a really kind, simple minded ,helpful, nice , cheerful gal....but she is not tat lucky for her love life....when she meet the rite person but may b it is not in the rite time or may b not in the rite place.....when time n place is rite...the person is not the one....when she have some1 she likes....the guy edi have someone de....haizzz...i really dun want to c her get hurt and sad...but wat i can do...she still need to face to truth by her self and wat i can do is stay by her side and support her....i will not say the guy is bad cos he is also a good fren of mine but may b he dun really noe how to make a limit to things tats y sad thing happen...haizzz....wish they can go through it and still can b fren...tats wat i hope....

as for me...wat am i sad for....act i also not sure y....but is it when a relaltionship gets longer...will people get bored with it? is it the sweetness in it have fade away and it all become so normal???althought it looks like its ok, stable bla bla.....but i still felt like the feeling is bein together for edi may b 5 to 10 years de....all looks so completely normal to me.....i still hope for some of those honey moon tat is when it is just started...kekeke...all those sweetness makes u feel so in love.....i wish i can start all over again...may b or may b not....i still will wait and c wat will happen in the future.....>.<

walao...mana eh tahan!!!!!

today something happen.....the f wolf came out to cari mangsa de....always go cari my fren....he want to attack me but i will kill him if he dare....tim chi he everytime also go attack my fren....tis time lagi worse.....then boys r not in then he can be more brave to action de...damn him!!!!! people watching movie u so bc body join together to watch for wat...also no ajak u to watch also....people asking oppinion u bc boday come over for wat...also no call u....u want cari mangsa go chi cheong kai there la...there many to be ur mangsa....u want do wat to them also can....u got money then can de....dun kacau my fren again la...please la....my fren dun dare to scold u cos she kind n soft...people still want give u muka o.....damn tat wolf lor......if me i sure kill u for sure..wtf....attention all gals always goin to hostel...beware of this big hamsap wolf....if he come near u....just ask him to fuck off...remember....dun be mangsa de!!!!

432 morning

hahaha...at tis time i'm not sleeping either finishing my second assignment tat i should past up long time ago......at first really sleepy but after the time not sleepy de.....kekeke...funny ya....every1 had already finish but me still have25 % to finish it...hope later can finish la....kekeke....these few days or i should say few weeks....quite a lot of things had happen....long story yet a bit complicate...but hope they can handle it la....althought wat happen i will always be there v u all de...>.<

there is something in my mind i can not decide....can anyone help me....is it if the rest of my life for not meeting v "the Queen" am i consider useless?or may be i 'm a scary cat? but if people didn't wanted to meet v u,should i make the first step? always taking the first step is really very common to me...even my love is also i'm taking the first step....but should i in this one? taking the first step in this one is really supper hard for me....either kena scold gou gou li...either kena break up gou gou li...either in the future kena treat super super cold gou gou li......hahaha...really super gou gou li the thing tat i think of...kekeke....but is not the time for me to take this step yet....u wanted to scold me i also decide de la.....no one can force me...kekekeke....

second thing in my mind is either anniversary or having trip v fren.....is one is truly wtf.....these two thing is not in the same date but i still need to choose...really wtf!!!!!!this is my second time of having my anniversary v my bf....but i not sure wat is the reason he wanted me to choose either one....if goin trip v frens no anniversary, if anniversary not having trip v fren...wtf!!!!these two thing is really important to me....one is spending the day v the people i love.... one is celebrathing a really greatfull frens bday having crazy time v my frens....i finally have some fres tat i like so much n they also like me too.....y i still need to choose.....really wtf!!!!!i dun care a....i two also want.....but really wanted to choose....i think i will choose to go trip v frens.....first year anniversary didn't went well.....wishing for second year...but i think i just have to dream for it cos i not goin to celebrate it le....a bit sad but i also quite used to it cos bein v a guy tat dun really care much of date....if for me in the past every special date to me is important....and now....i think there is no meaning for me to care too much of it.....i have to say this.....cos i really have some girls fren to hang out v...i can not loose them....love u guys so much!!!!! bye to anniversary.......

finally...althought the heart got a bit sad...but it will be ok for me since i edi used to it....kekeke...nite nite i need to have my sleep and countinue when i wake up.....

stress a bit, scare a bit....still need to face it....

these few days i also didn't slept early cos need to rush assignment....still have a bout a week time to do the second project....scary....but still need to face it and try my best to finish it....

last few days i was like goin here n there....it is also the first time i slept v two gals side by side in the same bed...kekeke...i felt happy tat i have my own gang tat i will felt comfortable when i'm v them...like to talk wat also can....felt very safe when i'm v them.... kekeke....long time didn't felt tis way de.....

today i had a fight again v him....felt very angry but this time i dun felt sad dun noe y.....normally when i had fights v him i sure will cry but tat time i dun felt tat way....is like not sad not angry like no feeling de.....but my mind came out "break up" this two word....i really wanted to say it out when suddenly dun have tat feeling of saying those word...is not tat i'm scare but is like really no feeling de....is it something good or something bad....i kind of think i'm selfish....i wanted him more than any1 but sometimes i dun want him....is like part time in a relationship part time bein single tat kind if feel....if u ask me do i still love him...i will say yes...but dun noe this answer will it last forever...i really wanted to noe....

i really need a job a...damn poor man...no money to shop.....wet....sien!!!!

time past really fast

today is the second day of the month of July....its really fast tat it had already past half year de....
in this half year time many things had happen happy,sad,angry...any of these also had happened
...some things also change with in this half year time....i also dun noe is a good things or not....may b it is good or may b it is not....hmmmm....

i wish to find a part time job...cos i'm very poor....many things tat i wanted to buy but no money....so sien de lor....haizzz.....i also dun dare to ask for more pocket money also...so wat to do...just need to tahan only lor....kekekeke.....little brother goin to study and i hope he will study hard dun give up....

as for my "sa lao", he really change a lot...he also have read my blog too...kekeke...can not belive he also have read....it is also good tat he read cos sometimes i also will not express wat i'm thinking and my feeling too him also ....he did something special for me quite long de....now i only notice.....am i bad or wat...kekekeke....

scary time for me is i haven finish my first project and yet haven start my second one...hope i can finish soon...gambate to chun,sa,ben,so also...kekeke

tuesday morning....

b4 i went to sleep...i would like to visit my dear blog...kekekeke...yesterday i noe some new frens n they quite playful...i like them very much also...friendly n yet playful...those kind of feeling is like i'm having holiday edi but i haven start yet....my work also haven done yet i'm wishing for my holidays....oh my god....i wonder can i finish on time????i must...just to more time for my holidays...miss them so much....wuhuhu T.T....

to ah chun, ah sa, ah ben, ah so....v must gambate to finish our work n enjoy our holidays....GO GALS....V CAN DO IT!!!!!!

dun noe wat should i name this blog?

these few days quite a lot of things happen.....first i would like to congratulation to my bf's brothers wife, wendy that she had had birth to i'm not yet sure is it a baby girl or boy......times really pass really fast...from tat time i noe tat she is pregnant and now she is already had birth....is really fast....i wish to go visit her but i dun really dare....c first how....

next i would like to say tat i did a quite good presentation for my building by law....i was really happy cos many dun think i can do so but i really let them c the true me tat i really could do things tat they really dun think i can do so...i really hit them in the face....wakakaka....i wish i can keep tat on.....and i will....

then i finally have my gang de...kekeke....n tat is csbs gang...and that is chun, sa, ben, sor....kekeke
but although it means stupid, crazy but v r actually not like tat...crazy may b got a bit but v r actually not stupid....kekekek...just v like to hide ourselves more...kekeke...and i'm happy v them....kekekeke

and for the last part...king of pop micheal jackson had past away....althought i'm not really his fan but i really pei fu him cos of his dance and his song....he pass aways to me is quite young....tat time when i noe he past away....dun noe y i felt sad...tat day it also rain like the god is also crying for him....hope he can rest in peace....he will always be remember no mather wat....