taylor swift's "mine"

i took this part for the lyrics because i really it does mean it and i also feel the same thing....

I was a flight risk with the fear of fallin
'Wonderin' why we bother with love if it never lasts
I say "Can you believe it?"
As we're lyin' on the couch
The moment I can see it Yes, yes I can see it now
(lyrics from taylor swift's "mine")

y v care if the love does even last? true right? if it doesn't last y we still do so much thing to maintain it, agree v me? but sometimes love need times....i'm not really sure bout it cos i have lost it be4 and i dun noe i can have it bck or nt.....

although i can see it....but dun even noe it will come true or not....or it is just a vision?...hahaha....

dun noe the decision i've make is right or not but at least i will not regret in the future.....nothing is impossible.....hahaha....everyone always say this but sometimes it is really hard to believe it....hahahaha......

hope everything goes smoothly......^_^

toy story 3

i just watch Toy Story 3 (although is a bit late....hehehe）it was a funny, meaningful and touching story.....it remain me a lot of my toys.....i didn't really take good care of them and in the end they got gave away to my relative children.....i kinda of miss some remaining stuff toys at my hometown.....>_<

toys r really important to us....may not all of us...but to me....they are quite important....they really bring back childhood memories where last time i used to have Barbie doll nite out v my fren....how v dress them up nicely....and i also have some stuff toys where i always like to hug them sleep together.....they can also be the close friend of out life time where all the time they will be by our side when v need them.....they can also be good in keeping secret....all our secret that v told to our toys will be totally save with them.....although they will not respond us when v needed some opinion but in the sense they will always support us no matter what v choose.....

from that movie....i will really appreciate my toys when they come bck to me and will always past them to my future children so that they will always be by my side....

TOYs....i love u....muah!!!

happy moon cake festival.....^_^

ei....today i'm not really talking bout moon cake festival because i think i'm not celebrate it because my friends all look so bc.....hahaha....may be later i will buy the moon cake i like to eat to make it a day....hehehe.....

today nothing quite special happen to me but a friend's words and advise totally change what i am thinking.....i really need to thankz him for spending the afternoon chatting v me, sharing his experience....i really felt thank full to him.....and very great full to myself....hahaha.....

tomorrow will another great day to explore.....^_^

day 28.....

today was the day of our presentation.....af first was a bit nervous because of not enough sleep....hahaha...just slept that one hour plus only......really very tired that time....we are the first group to present that time because they wanted to be the first want.....hahaha.....so everything goes smoothly as it should be and v did a good job in presenting it because the lecture do understand how i works....hahaha....other groups is also not bad.....but suddenly i felt confident that our group will be chosen to be construct in real life.....i think i will be very happy to c the real thing......

later i didn't went for the afternoon class because i was damn sleepy.....can nt even move after having lunch....hahaha....me and Shirley slept quite long but i was being awake by the lighting where i was really scary......the sound was very loud...my heart was pounding like it lost control but i can still take it.....later i continue to sleep and there was this most horrible part came and that is having this super super night mare..... i totally wake me where i though i was really screaming and crying loudly but i actually didn't happen.....the dream is my bf reply my email and suddenly say he wanted to broke up and saying things like becoming friend is much better......there is also some pic but is not bout us ....is totally some random pic.....at that time i cry very loudly where i really thought it really happen but in reality it doesn't.....this really scare me......i dun want this to happen and i hope this dream will not come back for me because i do not want it to come true.....not ever.....

be.....just like what i wrote for u in msn....i really mean it....please dun stop me....u remember i didn't stop u from chasing me back so please dun stop me....i do not want to regret for the rest of my life....i know what am i doing so don't worry of anything.....i can handle my studies very well......if u want me to stop thinking about u.....than y not u just kill me .....that way i will not have any worries.....and another thing is.....although what had happen u r always my boy friend, my love one.....no other man can get me because i'm urs......i'm not available except for u.....u remember there is part of u body that belongs to me and i have something that belongs to u......kekekeke.....so u dun try to run away from me because i'll sure will be the one chaising u.....wahahahaha......and i found out something that i felt what i say to u and promise to u, u like dun take it seriously and showing like i'm just saying it, playing with it........* I CAN SAY TO U THAT I AM VERY DAMN SERIOUS ABOUT IT.....BECAUSE GOD HAD GIVING ME A LAST CHANCE TO MAKING THINGS RIGHT...... I PROMISE I WILL GET U BACK AND I ALSO PROMISE TO MYSELF I WILL NOT LOSE MY STUDIES......PEOPLE CAN HANDLE IT SO DO I BECAUSE I AM SPECIAL.....WAHAHAHAHA......* BE....I LOVE U.....

day 27.....

today hold day i was working on group project on this interesting topic.....using biosphere as the theme of the furniture.....it is quite a meaningful project because it teaches us to used things that can be recycle or can not be recycle as our material for the furniture design. interesting right?

And now v r still preparing for the presentation....the other thing is when they like ur idea they will take it for entering the MSID contest......if v did chosen for the contest is of cos good if not we also did out best for it.....^_^

than this thing came to mind when i saw his MSN personal saying about room cleaning process.....it is very normal to clean a room when is messy right but to me i suddenly think that will he take my stuff and throw away? will him keep my stuff in a box and never to c them again or throw to my brother place like a meaning of nv ever to c them again.....arhhhhhh.....i began to worry.....started to feel scare.....when i was very confident on working on a plan and i was totally being effected.....but i tell myself to calm down because there have something more important to worry of....and then i just let it go and stop thinking about it......because he still have me in his heart...i think....hehehe......

baby...wait for me surprises coming to u ya.....muah!!!! 　

Lady Anterellum - Need you now....

This song really express a lot of feelings of mine.....when i hear this song i always thing of.....she is singing to feelings out from my heart.....this is a very meaningful to listen and i like it very much....

Lady Anterellum - Need you now....

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor ( the memories of me and you)

Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore (missing u so badly)

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind (wondering will you think of me at this time)
For me it happens all the time ( missing u every time)

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now (this what my heart is telling......)
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now ( i scare i will lose u)
And I don't know how I can do without ( sometimes i really wish u where there for me)
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door (always waiting at the door way hoping u will come)

Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now ( i wish i was drunk hoping to c you there by my side)
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

woah woaaah.

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all (it better to have this feeling than nothing )

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

I just need you now (wait)

Ooo, baby, I need you now (Baby, i wanted u bck so much)

day 26....

just finish my early breakfast and group discussion with my classmates.....i already predict that he will not come yesterday and it really came true.....what i wish it would happen it wouldn't happen....the other way what i wish it will not happen it happened....there is nothing more i can say.....suddenly i felt like i'm like forcing a cow to move and we know that how stubborn cow is.....if i force him to come, he will leave me more .....i think i really should give him time to be alone......or not i scare he will not come back to me and felt that i am very annoying and hate me even more......may be this is the way to make things right for awhile....

BE....if u r reading my blog....i would like to say sorry that i didn't even give u the time to rest and enjoy ur holiday.....i noe i am annoying these days it is because i miss u so much that i can not even control and think properly....from now on i will stop calling you, disturb u in msn.....if u really want to chat i'm always there to lean my heart n my ear for u.....my door is always open for u when u need me.....remember to take care and i'm always there for u.....i love u......