tonite will be a good nite...^.^

tonite i think i can get some sleep cos i felt relief....relief of finally get contact v him again....af first i thought will felt strange cos edi long time no contact de but when he calls i just can talk v him naturally....then v just have some sot coversation, asking the same thing between us how r v doin these days bla bla bla.......finally overcome something in my heart n my heart just felt like it can fly...kekeke...can tell he still the same old him but dun noe is he changing good or even woirse....hope he is doin fine la....kekeke....

today i didn't do anywork n is a bad bad thing......must boost up tomorrow....

sleepless nitez...>.<

at this time...348 in the morning i should be sleeping but i can't sleep although i'm tired...something bothering me these days....when someone is bzing v his work i should be ok v it but i felt not ok....i felt something is wrong v me...i should be considerate bout him...but when i saw something he did v his fc frens....i'm a bit small minded de...although nothing is there but i felt like is not fair....may be cos of jealousy...wtf...me bein jealous of some other thing tat i should not n nothing to b jealous about but me is me ...i can be sensitive in sometimes when u dun think i care but act i care..... haizzz...me is like tat....change de also like tat...now a days people r turning to like other people for not who they are but wat they change into....things happen to me n it also happen to others....the world is always tat cruel....where is no such thing as happy ever after in this world.....hahaha...tats is y i always believe in fairy tales althougt it will not come true but to let me feel happy bout it...hahaha...i also dun noe wat i'm talking here...kekeke....

another thing is i had this weird feeling bout my exx....me n him's story is like damn long time ago althougt v still remain as fren but is those no contact tat kind...act i also noe he is those kind of play boy type...but if just bein fren is ok v him....i edi long time didn't meet him or contact him cos if i do so people will think i still can not let go of him or i still like him but i can say no way it will happen again althought he didn't treat me bad or wat la...kekeke....things when strange when i saw my frens pic...it should be just she n her classmates only...but suddenly he shows up in the pic...i was like very shock n asking y he is there...there is no way he should be there...then asking again is he dating any gals there or is he dating my fren...i was like OMG n asking to myself y i care n i asking so much stupid question...if he is so there is nothing to do v me wat....but something ur mouth says does not mean ur heart n mind r thinking the same....to say the truth...when i saw him in the pic i kind of miss him....but not like want to be bck v him....just like want to noe how is he doin rite now something like tat....tats y when i'm alone many things will happen....the same nite i also dream of him n in tat dream i'm like very close fren v him...then end up headache the nxt morning...wtf...y i saw his anything i will bcome so uneasy?y when i saw him he just come bck to my mind?y i asking so much stupid question bout him?he is nothing to me but y?y?if i have no exes it would b better cos dun have this stupid kind of thing will happen...haizzzzzz.....

missed the time v have ......

dun noe y suddenly wanted to write my blog....act is there was nothing happen these few days....just i have one lect he is really a very great lect....he can even noe ur character from u writing n the thing u did....damn rite when he say bout me....kekeke...i like him very much n hope to like him one day but i dun noe y i'm like not enought comfident to be like him althought nothing is imposibble....

act i have some other thing tat i wish i can get advise from him...but i'm thinking is it too personal,will him have nothing to say when i told him bout this thing inside my heart for so long tat i act untill now tat i can not let it down....i really wanted some advise from some one to tell me wat should i do to solve this problem i have for so long....can not even feel rite even when i'm really rite...

the title missed the time v have is bout me n my bf....in the past v were like spendding too much time tgt.....but when come to now...when out time table clash....when he is bcing his assignment n i'm v mine....kind of spend less time tgt....so when the time v can finally be tgt is the most relieve time i ever felt....u can felt another part of ur heart has come bck for u....then u felt so in love....kekeke....happy to say this .....our heart will always have the other part will us....it is good tat i can when i'm in other place....i will not b so sad when apart with him cos i always noe he will always inside my heart n he will always put me inside his heart no matter wat.......kekeke...but if i can solve the problem.....it will be the happiest n relieve day i ever have...... good nite v luv ^.^

feelings of the month......

long time didn't upload my blog de....everytime wanted to write but like nothing to write...kekeke...

these feeling of mine is sometimes hard to express it out....sometimes felt sad but u can not show u r sad....angry also can not angry too much...is a bit sien tat u actually can not express wat u felt in a way u want to....i can say many sad things happen to me recently.....one of my cousin brother just past away....in a age of just 30 something....when i was small....v usually visit him...he is a geek in IT, games....he is really good in it....when years past by...v have lest contact de...i also lest visit him but when i heard bout his gone...my heart felt pain n its like u can not breath for a while....then tears drop....can not believe it really happen....i can just say when he is there i didn't spend sometime v him all...when he is gone i felt sad also felt like no used de....kind of missed him....

the other things is ...sad bout my classmates....i'm sad tat sometimes they dun even care bout how v felt....say things tat r harsh to us...making us felt hurt and pain in the heart....no one wanted anything happen between us so dun try to make or do stupid thing...think b4 u act....not just bout u..care bout others feeling....v r human....not things....animals also have feelings....want to do anything just say it out....ask oppinion....remember is nt u show...is ours....try to grow up de....b4 this i was really angry n sad...but when i heart from a fren about the real thing behind the sence....i felt ok...i hope tat fren of mine is not just trying to help them...hope is from his true heart cos i kinda trust him.....hope everything goes well n will turn a lesson for us...hope she learnt something....

sad.....T.T

today i felt sad....sad for a fren and for myself....i had mention b4 this fren in my blog b4....she is a really kind, simple minded ,helpful, nice , cheerful gal....but she is not tat lucky for her love life....when she meet the rite person but may b it is not in the rite time or may b not in the rite place.....when time n place is rite...the person is not the one....when she have some1 she likes....the guy edi have someone de....haizzz...i really dun want to c her get hurt and sad...but wat i can do...she still need to face to truth by her self and wat i can do is stay by her side and support her....i will not say the guy is bad cos he is also a good fren of mine but may b he dun really noe how to make a limit to things tats y sad thing happen...haizzz....wish they can go through it and still can b fren...tats wat i hope....

as for me...wat am i sad for....act i also not sure y....but is it when a relaltionship gets longer...will people get bored with it? is it the sweetness in it have fade away and it all become so normal???althought it looks like its ok, stable bla bla.....but i still felt like the feeling is bein together for edi may b 5 to 10 years de....all looks so completely normal to me.....i still hope for some of those honey moon tat is when it is just started...kekeke...all those sweetness makes u feel so in love.....i wish i can start all over again...may b or may b not....i still will wait and c wat will happen in the future.....>.<

walao...mana eh tahan!!!!!

today something happen.....the f wolf came out to cari mangsa de....always go cari my fren....he want to attack me but i will kill him if he dare....tim chi he everytime also go attack my fren....tis time lagi worse.....then boys r not in then he can be more brave to action de...damn him!!!!! people watching movie u so bc body join together to watch for wat...also no ajak u to watch also....people asking oppinion u bc boday come over for wat...also no call u....u want cari mangsa go chi cheong kai there la...there many to be ur mangsa....u want do wat to them also can....u got money then can de....dun kacau my fren again la...please la....my fren dun dare to scold u cos she kind n soft...people still want give u muka o.....damn tat wolf lor......if me i sure kill u for sure..wtf....attention all gals always goin to hostel...beware of this big hamsap wolf....if he come near u....just ask him to fuck off...remember....dun be mangsa de!!!!

432 morning

hahaha...at tis time i'm not sleeping either finishing my second assignment tat i should past up long time ago......at first really sleepy but after the time not sleepy de.....kekeke...funny ya....every1 had already finish but me still have25 % to finish it...hope later can finish la....kekeke....these few days or i should say few weeks....quite a lot of things had happen....long story yet a bit complicate...but hope they can handle it la....althought wat happen i will always be there v u all de...>.<

there is something in my mind i can not decide....can anyone help me....is it if the rest of my life for not meeting v "the Queen" am i consider useless?or may be i 'm a scary cat? but if people didn't wanted to meet v u,should i make the first step? always taking the first step is really very common to me...even my love is also i'm taking the first step....but should i in this one? taking the first step in this one is really supper hard for me....either kena scold gou gou li...either kena break up gou gou li...either in the future kena treat super super cold gou gou li......hahaha...really super gou gou li the thing tat i think of...kekeke....but is not the time for me to take this step yet....u wanted to scold me i also decide de la.....no one can force me...kekekeke....

second thing in my mind is either anniversary or having trip v fren.....is one is truly wtf.....these two thing is not in the same date but i still need to choose...really wtf!!!!!!this is my second time of having my anniversary v my bf....but i not sure wat is the reason he wanted me to choose either one....if goin trip v frens no anniversary, if anniversary not having trip v fren...wtf!!!!these two thing is really important to me....one is spending the day v the people i love.... one is celebrathing a really greatfull frens bday having crazy time v my frens....i finally have some fres tat i like so much n they also like me too.....y i still need to choose.....really wtf!!!!!i dun care a....i two also want.....but really wanted to choose....i think i will choose to go trip v frens.....first year anniversary didn't went well.....wishing for second year...but i think i just have to dream for it cos i not goin to celebrate it le....a bit sad but i also quite used to it cos bein v a guy tat dun really care much of date....if for me in the past every special date to me is important....and now....i think there is no meaning for me to care too much of it.....i have to say this.....cos i really have some girls fren to hang out v...i can not loose them....love u guys so much!!!!! bye to anniversary.......

finally...althought the heart got a bit sad...but it will be ok for me since i edi used to it....kekeke...nite nite i need to have my sleep and countinue when i wake up.....